Facing my fear
The next day we set off at 3am for Dent Du Geant. We reached the start of the rock climb (salle a manger) at around 6am where my nightmare started. I forgot to mention that we swapped rope team and I was with Xeheng, Osh and Keith. I was leading up to the salle a manger when Xieheng said that we are going to check out the Rochefort arrete(AD) before getting to the dent du geant. There was a long day ahead of us and I did not know why they wanted to go on that arrete sooo much! I soon found out! It's something I was not mentally prepared for! It was a steep ridge, with fresh snow from the previous days that managed to freeze over a day, and both side was crazily steep. There was no trail on the snow yet for this season, which means that the ridge has not been in condition yet.
As we started front pointing and moving on the edge of the ridge, I was fine as the grip felt secure with both my ice axe and boots firmly into the snow/ice wall. Then we had to climb on the ridge and poking my ice axe in the snow break the thin snow layer, allowing my axe to be hanging freely. We just had a tiny space to walk. A few minutes on the ridge, Osh slipped but quickly arrested his fall and got back walking. During that split second, I thought that we had to arrest his fall. All four of us being roped up increase safety, while at the same time putting one's life in the hands of the other team mates. If one were to fall on one side of the ridge (say right), he is supposed to shout right so that the rest jump in the void on the left side to counter balance that weight. After stability is reached, we are supposed to climb up the rope back on the ridge to resume climbing. As our rope team members were pretty new to each other, I was worried that the wrong side was shouted when one of us fall causing all of us to jump in the void. After what felt like an eternity, Xieheng mentioned that the snow does not look good and we should turn back. I was so happy. As I turned back to follow Nick's team who was behind us, he shouted "Xieheng, your team can continue if you want" Xieheng then told us that we will go ahead a bit more. Hell no! I told them that I was not comfortable and to turn back. I was really not prepared for that and was worried of how I will perform on the Kuffner ridge.